Right now I 'feel' like I could use some friends to tell me I'm not crazy, that I'm not wrong, that it's all her fault, that my point is totally valid, that he or she doesn't know what they are talking about, that I have a right to feel this way, that I am totally right etc. Basically I think I want some people to tell me what I WANT to hear. To enable me. To stroke my ego.
But GOD won't do that. Instead, he's lovingly, but uncompromisingly showing me my faults. Showing me what I need to work on and change to be more like what he created me to be.
He thinks I'm better than I even think I am! He thinks I'm capable of more then I feel like I am!
Who does he think I can be?!
I could fight him, and be mad at him longer, and mad at the world longer, and feel lonely and depressed longer...except I can remember enough times in my life where that only prolonged my misery. I almost reluctantly am saying..."Okay God, I remember I can trust you...show me what you see."
He shows me, it hurts, I'm wrong, I'm ashamed, he shows me the truth, carries me through it...and it turns out God is exactly the kind of friend I need.
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