POLEMIC
1: an aggressive attack on or refutation of the opinions or principles of another
2: an aggressive controversialist
I don't want what I write to be polemic. I don't want to be hateful, mean, cruel, fanatic, hurtful, damaging, angry, bitter, annoying or anything else that turns people off. Every now and then it does come across in conversation with people I respect and care for, that things I have written before have offended them. So far I have been genuinely sorry for their feelings, but personally feeling very misinterpreted. More than my fear of offending people however, is my fear of what lies and deception can do to this world...of what lies and deception can do to us personally.
The question of God and the meaning of Life (real Life) still gnaws at my guts and my heart. The gnawing is less to do with not knowing what some of the answer are, and more to do with my frustration at times with not being able to share it effectively with people I care about...who from my eyes believe some incredibly damaging lies, and are caught in a enormous web of deception.
I search and I pour over books, interviews, videos, debates...anything and everything! To educate myself, to see the way others see! I must appear arrogant at times to some...but I am driven to lead them in anyway I can to the Truth.
God, I know on my own I can do nothing. As a lone human among billions in the history of the earth I have nothing new to offer, nothing special to say on my own. Nothing lasting or meaningful to utter. Even kings of past, conquerers of old are mere letters in a book. Even presidents will one day be lost in the unrelenting eroding power of history and time. But with you God. With you God I have a mission, I have a role, and I have a hope that my life can truly matter.
How much simpler can we put it?
Does matter matter? Does the human story mean anything that is beyond our material existence? Does the individual matter? Does meaning have any real meaning? Does life have meaning? How can we have meaning if we are unplanned? How do we have meaning to a universe without a mind behind it?
We don't really matter without God. Why? Because without God the human story is not in relation to anything! To be human is to have a story, to be in relationship. Meaning has no meaning unless it is between two minds.
I am speaking to my wonderful friends out there who are atheist :)
How do we reconcile the fact that we are relation beings in a non-relational universe?
I have read the evolutionary theories and explanations. But they do not even come close to a comprehensive answer, they are barely speculation.
It defies reason to think that we are merely complicated processes. We care. And we are. And we mean something. A purely physical existence does not satisfy that reality. It does not justify it. It is a deception.
God is real, he cares, open your heart and look. Look again. Look again. Look again.
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Dude, I think god broke your brain.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your helpful and insightful comment :)
ReplyDeleteI am always eager to change my perspective when a reasonable alternative is offered from a good willed heart. If you can provide that, please do. If you are unable to on this matter, it may be worth considering quietly and thoughtfully what exactly it is that is bothering you. I hope you find peace!
Preach all you want, but you seem to be judgemental and full of negativity, literally anathema to what Jesus Christ was about (seriously, read the bible objectively).
ReplyDeleteI know you've alienated a lot of people around you, so take some helpful advice and lay off the preachy, completely unproveable god stuff and gain a little perspective.
In other words, be a better person to others and respect their beliefs.
Dear Anonymous, I am not overly suprised that it 'seems' to you that I am full of judgement and negativity. Had I run into my current self, 15 years ago I might have felt the same way :) I am sorry, that is not my intent or my hearts desire. If we look at the life of Jesus Christ (objectively of course!) :) I think we would clearly see that he was well loved by many, but incredibly hated by those who would not or could not accept Him or his words of Truth. He was not crucified because they thought he was too swell of a guy! Jesus respected people, loved people, forced no one. But he also was not meek or weak, or compromising of Truth. He was not tolerant of lies and deception. And in this world you are literally a fool if you do not believe in the existence of lies and deception. You would also be a fool if you did not believe that you yourself have bought into some of them. We all have (myself included). That is why the Truth is so important to me. Because it reveals the lies and deceptions which are destroying our beautiful humanity.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate you looking out for me in the sense that you don't want me to alienate people. I truly do not want to do that. I do strive to be sensitive and appropriate to the best of my ability. But morally and intellectually I can no longer maintain the belief (if this is in fact what you are suggesting) that respecting peoples beliefs is the same as agreeing to them or thinking them to be true and beneficial. As I mentioned in previous post, blind tolerance is a destructive thing. Truth spoken in grace, respect and love is not. I greatly hope to be the latter and never the former.
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